Who Am I?

Behind the glass

Now that I have finally stopped crying on a daily basis, I have had some time to evaluate myself as a person. When that moment of “he is breaking up with me…this is really happening…this is it” hit, I felt like the most worthless human being on the planet. Continue reading

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Brains Over Beauty

One for every mood swing.

One for every mood swing.

Thankfully, the false dichotomy between brains and beauty that once pervaded society is slowly fading away. Magazines and other media outlets have begun to celebrate attractive, intelligent women like Marissa Mayer and Michelle Obama. Similarly, supermodels like Christy Turlington and actresses like Emma Watson who complete their university education are touted as ‘stars with substance’. Continue reading

Another Roller Coaster Ride

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When I examined my body in the mirror this morning, I felt a rare surge of confidence. I thought to myself, “You know what? I don’t look that bad. I look alright!” I still haven’t lost any of the weight I put on from binging (in fact, I’m still gaining weight), but since I’ve been exercising 2 to 3 times per week for a few months now and I’ve stopped having frequent binges, I thought I looked a bit less flabby.

I carried my newfound confidence into the office. I was feeling good, and it’s been a long time since I’ve felt good about my body. Then it happened. Continue reading

The Price of Thinness

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Near the end of my final counselling session, my counsellor Karen very quietly and very gently said to me, “Don’t forget that being thin comes at a price too”. Her words resonate with me whenever I feel frustrated with my weight and my seeming inability to lose weight. Whenever I think about her words, it brings me back to my life before BED. Continue reading