Then Heartbreak Happened

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It feels like a century since my last blog post. Earlier this week, my boyfriend unexpectedly broke up with me. I loved him so much. He meant everything to me. I woke up every morning looking forward to his smile, his jokes, his energy, his hugs, his calming words and presence… all of that now gone forever. Continue reading

Beginning Again

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I am going to begin my recovery again. I realized very soon into my relapse that I was out of control, but I wasn’t ready to return to recovery. It’s difficult to explain why, but I wasn’t in the right mental mindset. I didn’t have any more energy, any more resolve, or any more strength. It was like my batteries were dead but I just wanted to exist, drained, without attempting to recharge. Continue reading