Beginning Again

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I am going to begin my recovery again. I realized very soon into my relapse that I was out of control, but I wasn’t ready to return to recovery. It’s difficult to explain why, but I wasn’t in the right mental mindset. I didn’t have any more energy, any more resolve, or any more strength. It was like my batteries were dead but I just wanted to exist, drained, without attempting to recharge. Continue reading

HLx2 Challenge: Week 3

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I almost knew this would happen. I consider my challenge to be over. I was doing really well this week, and then on Thursday, I got really sick. I had a sore throat from hell, a nose like a dripping faucet, a pulsating headache, and no energy whatsoever. I was coughing violently, with my chest heaving and my whole body convulsing, every other minute. Continue reading