Now that I have finally stopped crying on a daily basis, I have had some time to evaluate myself as a person. When that moment of “he is breaking up with me…this is really happening…this is it” hit, I felt like the most worthless human being on the planet. Continue reading
It is clear to me that I have relapsed. This is my first significant period of relapse since beginning recovery. I cannot stop binging. Continue reading
The worst part of binge eating disorder is the emotional toll it takes on your personal happiness, self-esteem, and relationships with others. I’ve done so much damage to these three things; some of it, perhaps more than I would like to admit, is irreparable. Continue reading
After staying in a beautiful tropical paradise for a week, I feel renewed and calmer. I had a great time in the Dominican Republic, and I came back with a lovely tan and no major illnesses. I also learned many new things that could impact my relationship with food in the future. Continue reading
I have three theories on why many people no longer admit to trying to lose weight. People will tell you that they are trying to “eat healthier” or “exercise more” or “cut back on sweets” or “stop eating processed food”, but what they don’t tell you is that their primary measure of success is weight loss or some other form of it, such as a smaller dress size. Continue reading
You may disagree or call me hypocritical for writing this post, but I’m always up for a little controversy. For those who have never heard of Crystal Renn, she is considered the most famous high-fashion, plus-size model in recent history. You may be thinking, “Plus-size? She’s plus-size?!” Well, she was. Continue reading
Following up on my last post about strategies that have helped me achieve my recovery goals so far, I’m now going to talk about commonly suggested strategies that just completely backfired on me. However, these strategies may totally work for you! The main purpose of this post is to give you more ideas on how you can overcome the urge to binge. Continue reading
Bulimia is undeniably a terrible disease. But there is one benefit to having bulimia over BED: you get taken seriously. Continue reading
I was scared to try counselling. What if it didn’t work? What would I do then? What would they say to me? What would they think of me? What would they make me do? What would they make me say? What would my classmates, friends, and family think of me if they found out? What if it made my binging worse?
The idea of bringing up the past and facing how much I’ve managed to screw up my life made me want to curl up into the fetal position and cry. Where would I even start? My issues with eating date back to the 5th grade. It felt like opening up the most horrible, ugly, maddening, why-won’t-it-go-away-and-why-does-it-smell-so-bad can of worms.
Just remember that your life is worth it. Your life is worth saving. Continue reading
Making the decision to seek counselling was very difficult for me – in my mind, it meant admitting failure, admitting that I couldn’t solve my own problems, admitting that there was something “wrong” with me, admitting that I wasn’t strong-willed enough to stop binging, and so forth. So over and over again, I told myself that I didn’t have time.
Spare time truly is scarce in law school, with readings, papers, CAN-ning, and extracurricular activities or part-time work taking up the bulk of your time. What precious little time is left usually goes toward being with your significant other, friends, or family. But the fact of the matter is that if you have time to binge, then you have time to go to counselling. Continue reading