After hitting a hard low after a harsh week (see my previous post), I have decided to embark on a challenge. For the next four weeks, I am going to push myself to 1) do a 30-minute workout four times a week and 2) meet my daily calorie goal averaged over the next month.
I have shied away from these healthy living challenges in the past because failure is a definite and definable potential outcome. You either hit your targets or you don’t. But right now, I need concrete goals to focus on. I feel like it’s the only way I can get myself back on track.
For some of you, doing a short workout four times a week and eating 1,800 calories every day probably seems pretty easy. In fact, I’m sure some of you are able to exercise far more and eat far less than that. But I already struggle to exercise twice a week. I struggle to eat right every day.
Given how my recovery has looked so far, I’m not expecting weight loss or my body to change. I’ve resigned myself to the fact that I don’t think I can lose weight or drop a dress size, no matter what I do. I just want to prove to myself that I can achieve something that I set out to do.
Part of me is already thinking that I won’t last a week. That same part of me is thinking that I should give up before I start. But I’m curious to see what will happen. Will being healthy ultimately make me happy? Will this alter my eating habits for good? Will this finally get me to enjoy exercise?
I begin my healthy life – happy life challenge with a beloved quote: “Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”
As always, I will be completely (and brutally) honest in my posts to come. I hope I won’t be writing negative post after negative post for the next four weeks. I hope something positive comes of this. But that’s what all of this comes down to, isn’t it? This is an exercise in hope.